Nd again i feel so damn suckish ! D: i dont noe why. it cant be bout’ H. i noe im over and done with him. i dont wanna make my life revolve around him again. its too much. his just fucking killing me slowly. i noe , its stupid to have this feeling towards him but i cant stop myself. ouh , i wish i could. for this 1 year , H has made this huge impact on me … my new view of the world and mainly guys. i dont noe what happen to us back then. some thirdwheeler came and took him from my reach. but i cant regret nw. its almost a year and im stil’ mending tat fragile heart of mine. my friends have been telling me to move on but my heart says “dont , his gonna come back to you just wait and see.” no i cant wait i dont wanna wait. i have been waiting for months. noe when i started to talk to him again , i tot everything was gonna be normal but noo , it made us more distant…i dont understand. he said ,”iloveyou” but i wonder where tat fucking “iloveyou” went to. i dont understand why he even said tat ? was it just to make me feel light-headed for just a tiny second? ouh fuck it…now the worst part has just started !! he moved and now his living near my school. how great? what if i saw him at the street ? under the blocks ? at the mrt station ? or me with my friends and he with his friends ? what if it was like it was in my dreamm…? what if i bump into him while walking ? i dont think i cn hold back the tears.
And you can see my heart beating
You can see it through my chest
And Im terrified but Im not leaving
Know that I must must pass this test
So just pull the trigger
I feel so shitty today. I wonder why? Anyways,for the upcoming outings with xyz,pra,1a2,fify,cousins are all in the same week. Gonna be one hell of a hectic week ahead. Hha , well it’s the raining season. It’s freaking raining every damn hour. wtf wtf wtf ??? Ouh well,been slacking with half of PRA(lol). I swear i miss them so muchh!!! Hawhawhaw … well , time for me to do something stupid now.
ME,ZAKIA,MEGAT was being random at night. Middle of the night…be it was fun. I laugh out loud while chatting with them. Hehehe~ Kia , left/when offline. While, me and megat are still online now. Chatting , talking mainly crap! Hhah~ I don’t know what i will do without them both to entertain me. Hhahs :D
